👻 11 September Death & Rebirth
This was a classic death & rebirth kinda day.
I fell, and with Nati’s extra extra help, rose again.
Turning the page
I’m not saying this was my worst day ever.
There’s been some real ugly motherfuckers in the past.
But how I felt today, how I behaved, is defo one of the anti-highlights of this season.
Stress is eating me.
Tomorrow’s deck meeting (I haven’t done much yet, but the same thing happened the last time, and I won nonetheless?)
Wednesday’s recording (my biggest stress here is that I’m not in my 110% shredded shape/ feel fat)
Everything that coming next (more on this very soon)
Let’s unpack from the most stressful: What’s next?
Here’s how I see the situation:
Tomorrow & the day after tomorrow I’m having some side/extra quests that are both making me rich & excited.
Good.
But…
…my plans end here.
Once we’re back from Warsaw,
there’s nothing, absolutely nothing scheduled in our lives.
Except work, of course.
This is making me nervous.
Throughout the summer, the plan was simple:
SQUEEZE THE HELL OUT OF IT,
ADVENTURE TILL WE DROP
Now the playing field is changing.
Days will be shorter, adventures harder to get by, and a shitload of responsibilities take their place.
Fuck, I don’t even know how we’re supposed to make it all work time-wise if Natalia gets the new project (x2), got grant paperwork to do + recording of SVP.
It sounds like 3 full-time jobs at once, and where is my space & work?
I’m not even scared of the work itself that much.
I’m more concerned about losing the joy of living and becoming an obsessive/manic/performance machine.
There’s nothing I’d hate more.
How to stay serene, full of smiles, and still have amazing days while stepping up our work game?
Maybe there’s a hidden clue in how I said it?
GAME.
Game is fun.
Game is something you can get good at.
Game can be played again & again.
Game is Play.
Ladies & Gentlemen,
we’re onto something massive here.
A tectonic shift in my worldview,
the missing piece.
Game Play.
What if I could drop this ugly seriousness and replaced it by joy of creating, love of sharing, and experimentation?
What if making money can be as easy, exciting, natural as eg. riding bikes is?
I can get good at whatever I put my mind to.
And boy, I want to get good at the game of work & money.
This entry might not be the most, elegant, well-thought-out one.
But it’s happening, it’s part of the GAME.
I’m playing, producing, doing.
This is a win already.
Not getting into too much planning now, here’s how I want the next chapter to look like:
Love between US.
Unlock the next level → Spain?
Focus on aura & health
Have awesome days
Create & share from, in, with love
Money is my lover, best buddy, companion, assistant, HERE!
Changing
my ways
One journal
at a time
Love, Bartosz