🟡 13 October 2023 Kawa i Zabawa / All Blocks Are Conquerable
⛱️ Amazing Things:
⛱️ Kawa i Zabawa
By complete accident, we’ve found one gem of a spot.
“Coffee & Play” → it was exactly that.
Good coffee, decent vege cakes, and a fantastic indoor playground.
A dream for a soggy afternoon like today.
Mr. Kula laughing so hard in the ball pool, watching him completely engrossed in (alone) play, kind interactions he’s shared with other kids, obstacle course chase
= ALL GREAT MEMORIES
⛱️ The most tenacious beachgoers
It was cold AND raining, yet we still had fun at the beach.
The sand is my boy’s favourite place on Earth.
Mine too…
Hope we’ll soon get to experience it every day.
PS. This experience was the final proof that outside conditions can’t take away our joy.
Inner glow.
⛱️ Redbull Rampage
The only sports event I religiously watch.
Sort of an annual holiday.
I’m sorry for Szymon’s Crash (at least he didn’t kill/seriously injure himself), and equally happy for the 38-year-old winner.
Old boys can still rock ;)
And seeing his son throw himself on his neck - adorable
“I hope seeing Daddy do it will encourage them to go for their wildest dreams”
- Cam Zink
⛱️ Slow Morning with Hugi
We didn’t leave home before 9 a.m.
Nor did we change pajamas into “real clothes”.
What we did instead was sharing coziness, hugs & laughs, being absolutely thrilled by one another’s company.
Sometimes you need to take it slow to find true happiness & bond.
Magic of unhurriedness.
⛱️ Meditation + writing
Another round of release & rebuild.
This time with the otherworldly bodily sensations, and super clarying notes included.
My tools, my ways ROCK!
⛱️ Cleaning the whole house before going to sleep
💝 I am grateful for:
💝 Being
How lucky I am to be alive?
I’m healthy,
I’m surrounded by people who love me,
I have food, drink & shelter.
Today is another opportunity to cherish the miracle of Life.
Give it ALL!
💝 The support & kindness I received after posting “Odbudowa”
Your words mean the world to me.
I’ve long struggled with low self-esteem, doubted if anything I do makes any sense.
Hearing so many loving voices telling me they enjoyed my work, that it helped, gave hope, inspired, was just marvelous.
I’m grateful, from the bottom of my heart, for every single message.
Love comes back.
💝 Releasing (inner) obstacles
All blocks are conquerable.
The fears I faced (& still face) are nothing but bad wiring of the brain, residue of the past.
I’m able (as is everybody) to let go of them, and reprogram myself into new heights.
Power moves.
👷 Work - Next money & creative ACTION(s)
Here’s where I stand today:
I do want to increase my cash at disposal.
Yes, it looks like we should be able to finance Spain (to some degree) using only Nati’s projects’ earnings (conditional upon signing the deal next Friday & successful transfer of funds).
I don’t want, however, to rely only on her income.
I do want to bring food to the table too.
The situation is tricky in the sense that:
A. I don’t know which moves might actually bring my cash status up
B. I have limited time at my disposal (Nati’s super busy and I’ll most likely need to give some of “my” time to her in the next days).
C. I fear going for what I really want
Let’s stop here...
Let’s assume I can erase all fear (inner obstacle as I just named it 5 minutes ago in the gratitude list)
What do I really, really want to happen?
What is the absolute best scenario, a dream come true?
It’s easy.
If I knew I couldn’t fail, if I could use a magic wand to create my new work & money reality, I’d love nothing more than to have a group of people who enjoy my work and are glad to pay for it.
All the “big projects” my finance-oriented (fearful?) parts came up with, like working for a creativity AI company, or even the Journal:Data project are actually plan B.
Yes, I’d love to accomplish some of the missions they offer like healing with PROs or analyzing my journals by a psychiatrist, but as I said it before…
…these are side quests, not the real dream.
The real dream is way simpler, even ordinary.
Live amazing days & create.
Freely, unrushed, being just normal me.
How can I get closer to it TODAY?
Actually start sharing what matters the most to me - current days magic.
Actually ask people for money, offering great value in exchange
Actually give myself the space to create what I want to exist
Actually stop doubting if it’s possible, and simply go for it with full force
Actually do share/market what I do to my highest ability
Actually allow myself the permission to go towards what I love the most, not always seek “reasonable” choices
There is an element of risk in playing this kind of ball.
But maybe it’s just all in my head?
Maybe in reality this vision/plan is nowhere as hard, impossible as parts of me want me to believe?
Maybe I’m ripe to finally let go of the limiting self-beliefs and let my true light shine?
Maybe I already love myself enough to give myself the CHANCE?
All in.
🈶 Bonus
How can I materialize this most desirable scenario? (continued in 🈺Work Journal)