😹 16 July 2023 Crying With Gratitude
Today is a special day.
It looks like I’m finally having the whole day to myself.
I’ve dreamed of it for weeks now.
There’s nowhere I have to go, nothing to do, including caring for Hugi.
I love this Beattle to insanity, but sometimes I need (& deserve to) be just Me, just Bartosz.
Fabolous.
There are quite a few things on my mind, issues I want resolved.
But I’m not gonna go into another overblown overthinking spree.
This never makes me happy.
Instead, what I’ll do is open my vision to all the lovely things around & in me.
💞 I am grateful for:
💞 Every time Hugi says “Dziękuję tatusiu”, “Kocham Cię”, “Chcę do tatusia”, “Przepraszam”, “Chcę utulić”, “Chodź bliżej”, “Za buziaka zamienię się w baristę” and all the other sensationally sweet, innocent and so genuine heart-grabbers.
We’ve given life to a miracle.
There is not a single day when he doesn’t amaze, uplift, and fill me with gratitude.
However exhausting it might be to cater to his needs 24/7, there is not a iota of doubt in me that having him, having you, Son is the best thing EVER.
💞 Nati & Me being a supercouple again!
We’ve had our share of turbulence lately / in the last years.
Ever sing Hugi was born, most of the time & attention that was *ours* got transferred to him.
It’s not an easy situation, especially for us who used to spend 99% time glued together.
It took a LOT to rebuild what we once had, but we’re here baby.
And it feels just wow.
I missed you, love!
💞 That we, I are not giving up despite seemingly neverending obstacles, curveballs & challenges
I will admit it - many things do not go smoothly.
We, I have to give my best, highest self way more often than I did in the past.
When I were still a boy, a single dude living the big city life, I didn’t have much trouble.
Not getting into a club was considered a mini tornado.
Now the stakes are higher.
I have a family, a medium-sized bear who relies on me.
I have just enough hours to cram only the most essential me-things and that’s only if I fight hard for it.
I have a delicate mind which requires lots&lots of love.
I have a burning passion, a muse that wants me to treat her good too.
I have dues, expectations, tasks, responsibilities, things I want & have to do.
And I’m only learning to dance these moves.
I’m proud of myself for how I’ve adapted so far & open to taking on even more on my shoulders.
Being “free” in the sense of non-commitment might bring a sea of pleasures.
But being a dad, a husband, a Man is SATISFACTION.
Earned tastes better.
🏖️ Amazing Things Today:
🏖️ “Chcę do Ciebie Tatusiu” / Explosions of closeness before sleep
All he wanted is to be glued to me.
I joyfully delivered.
What we have going for us currently is simply spectacular.
My Son.
🏖️ Throwing Him on the pillows like in the old days
I built a soft landing & off we went.
So much fun!
I adore our man time - boxing, acrobatics, all that jazz.
Favourite.
🏖️ Spending the whole day doing exactly & only what (& how) I wanted
I worked A LOT, but only on what I love.
I played with Hugo, but only when I wanted to.
I worked out, but in a way that made me feel good.
I wrote, just the things my heart guided me to.
What a day!