👾 17 July 2023 Crossing Off Demons

Jul 31, 2023

Today I won every moment.
It was not an easy day, quite the opposite.
That’s why victory feels so good.

In the morning I made a list of all anxieties.

And ruthlessly executed towards each one.

Difficult conversations that I tried to hide from.

Unpleasant thoughts bouncing in my mind.

Physical sensations which left me short of breath.

All looked in the eye, and conquered.

The biggest learning, what I want to remember is the blessed relief.

Crossing off demon after demon, I felt weight dropping off my chest.

New space, vacuum appeared.

And as I soon found out,

Love found its way to fill it.

🏖️Amazing things:

It was one of the best, most sincere yet easygoing times we’ve ever shared.

I open up about my doubts & anxieties, he listened & talked back.

I don’t think I ever felt as comfortable around him.

Partners.

This conversation has been stressing me out for the last couple weeks.

I poured my heart out and received nothing but understanding.

This guy is a treasure.

True Friend.

Forever.

After a month+ of soul seeking it seems I finally have found the solution where brain, feels & self synergies.

The shot.

None of us really smoke, and that made it even more special.

A celebratory inhale & exhale.

Meditation x2, lots of true writing, training, walk, music - the whole package.

This shit works.

End of story.

He’s too good, too pure to be true.

I love you, Coconut.

Delightful.