🍯 26 October 2023 Plush Mindset
🌅 Morning
Boroszewo, Poland
💝 I am grateful for:
💝 Another day
Today is another chance to laugh, love, feel alive.
The weather might not be perfect (not to say it’s 100% disgusting gloomy October Classic) but I will to let it stop us from making this day amazing.
💝 A rare chance to spend so much time with Hugo
Is it challenging? At times, yes.
Is it rewarding? And how…
This era in my life is dedicated to making my Family, my Home full of love.
I’m here to nourish, elevate, simply love you, Paw Patrol.
💝 Learning to love my body
I do struggle (a lot) with body-acceptance.
Despite being obviously in shape, I still see (saw?) my body as a festival of flaws, ugly thing to be fixed.
No amount of exercise and diet will change how I feel.
I’m starting to realize it’s a much deeper-rooted issue, something I need to mentally heal from.
Let’s invest time & effort into making the positive-image-change happen.
💝 Being (somewhat) financially safe at the moment
We’re in the best standing since Kraków.
It feels the best.
Eradicating financial anxiety is on top of my life priorities.
I never want to feel broke, threatened again.
💝 Finding the strength to write yesterday
It’s obvious there are parts within me who do all they can to stop me from making my dreams happen.
Especially this one particular wish - to freely create, share, and earn from my work is under constant inner siege.
Winning over these fear instincts is not an easy feat.
I’m proud of myself for consistently showing up for myself, for all the effort I put into my Practice.
“Artist, remember what it took to be where you are today” → It was a long & rocky road, Kiddo.
A path of learning to trust, encourage, simply love myself.
Now, embrace the next natural blossom.
💝 Living from a place of softness
Tenderness beats tension in 99% of situations.
Being soft (again…) is my greatest achievement of the last couple days/weeks.
The amount of love that currently hugs my days, the easygoingness, the ability to cherish the ordinary stem directly from the plush mindset & corresponding acts-of-love.
Never lose this vibe!
💝 Being useful
How can I make loved one’s lives a bit easier?
What can I do to make them smile?
What not to do to avoid hurting?
How to be more open & present for you?
Let these questions guide this chapter (and all to come).
🌘 Evening
Boroszewo, Poland
Today we had another adventure day.
First, the beach.
Tiny-winnie rain, but who cares.
We had a blast.
Hugi climbing the rope-ladder to the second floor of the playground all by himself.
Playing in the wet sand (sensory games)
Scootering to the spot
and, perhaps most memorably, meeting the lovely surfer couple and their daughter Hela.
This was such an awesome time/chat.
We talked about living abroad, surf spots, challenges of being a parent, playground recommendations, work, all the stuff parents like us care about.
I really do hope we’ll stay in touch.
Next on, the nap walk.
It took me almost an hour to get my soldier to retreat.
2 long paw patrol stories, some trademark side-to-side stroller hypno rockin’, background sea noise, and sleep won.
At first, I couldn't relax nor find my musical vibe.
I decided to switch it up, and went from familiar house to modern polish rap.
What a fantastic decision.
My brain craved NEW stimuli, and boy these hits delivered it! (in abundance)
♫ The super speedy Oki bragga
♫ The funny “Nametag”
♫ and the 5-star delicacy: new Taco Hemingway.
I’m mesmerized by this album.
The concept, the lines, the beats, they all add up to a masterpiece, a proper postcard from our times.
Even though I don’t feel as furious, desperate, hopeless as the MC sometimes appears to be, I still can appreciate the artistic genius of capturing these emotions in such a captivating, honest way.
Next stop, Budumi indoor play center.
It’s always a good time when the two of us get to explore new places together.
Ball Pool, obstacle course, blocks of all sizes & shapes, fun fun fun.
I’m so happy I can provide such entertainment to my Homie.
Top attraction?
The leather rope labyrinth / air bed.
Laughs to the max.
Last stop before heading home: Mimi’s.
Seeing him this happy (I don’t think I’ve seen Michał better off anytime in the last couple of years) is filling me up with warmth & love.
I’m so happy for ya!
And the apple pie was ridiculously delicious…
One last highlight:
Hugi saying “Tatuś, Tatuś, Tatuś” (“Daddy, Daddy, Daddy”) in his sweetest, most loving voice, looking at me as if I was his treasure, just before going to bath.
I’m a lucky star.
Real lucky.
PS. Nati rubbing my back = another highlight.