Open up!
Today is another chance to let go.
My work-related patterns are clearly dysfunctional
The stories don't get enough likes?
Depressive
Success doesn't come right away?
Doubting if anything I do makes sense
Not a millionaire?
Why exist in the first place?
I can't go on like this.
Poisoning family with my disgruntled, doom-ish behavior.
Hating myself.
Not seeing, appreciating what I have, blinded by what I chase.
There must be another way.
A path filled with play, curiosity, childlike exploration.
One without constant agitation.
The real deal.
What if I tried the opposite of what Iâve been doing so far?
Instead of excessive pushing, go towards what naturally pulls me.
Tension replaced by easygoingness.
The need to impress becomes following my deepest instincts.
Money, to this point seen as something you fight for, now a part of DNA
Dreams & Love > Fears & Musts
I know Iâm capable
I know there are ways
I know it canât all be struggle & tears
Nothing will stop meâŚ
My life work
PS. Easy.
đˇ Work
Ok, now a little bit of tactical brainstorming.
Whatâs the current standing?
Where are we headed?
Whatâs the first step?
Letâs start with whatâs great:
My library is looking great. Iâm really proud of my work
New writing is coming along super nice - see yesterdayâs & todayâs entries
The promo ice has been broken âPierwsze koty za pĹotyâ
I got some money flowing from K+C
Thereâs a project with WâŚe incoming (stoked!)
Natiâs big project has decent probability of getting signed (=money) + the grant is also looking good
Not so nice:
Current cash reserves are running low. We have maybe XXX PLN. That wouldnât be so bad in general, but we still need to pay off <censored>. I promised to get it done by the end of the month. Full sum is impossible, but some part need to be done. Itâs an important thing for our friendship, and my wellbeing & self-worth
Subscriber growth is not as dynamic as I expected it to be. At this point, Iâm doubting whether I should be relying on this income stream at all
Even if all Nataliaâs projects got signed, thatâs still not enough to cover Spain Trip
On emotional side, the process of working & earning has brought a lot of stress & life dissatisfaction. I feel like Iâm at war. So does Nati.
What do I want the most?
Donât stress about the money any longer
Pay off debt
Have money to go to Spain
Keep creating
Enjoy days&life!!!!
What are the potential solutions?
A. Get a regular job / high-paying project
B. Hit a home run with getting paid subs
C. Score investment
D. Sell something other than paid subs (workshops, consulting, course, etc etc)
What could be the first step towards the above scenarios?
A. Get a regular job / high-paying project
talk to P.C.
write a post / thread / blogpost to generate interest from generative AI / AI therapy (or else) companies
DM/ email people who might want to work with me
Say aloud Iâm looking for a job on Linkedin
Ask people from my Network if they know about any open roles
B. Hit a home run with getting paid subs
1-1 convince close friends (Ĺ,P) to buy
publish The Crew offer on Instagram
introduce myself & my work on Substack Notes & other places
promote the big hits (Tools)
get reposted by a big account / Substack shoutout
Join the Crew email to the existing email list!!!
C. Score investment
talk to P.S. or other angel from my network
pitch to creator funds / angels
D. Sell something other than paid subs (workshops, consulting, course, etc etc)
run a paid workshop at âŚ
publish an offer on Instagram
collaborate with S*****i - paid event with me as a lecturer
advertise âconsultingâ calls on Linkedin
???
Which of the options above is closest to heart?
Get Paid Subs / founding members âThe Crewâ
Which of them could generate a steady flow of big income?
Get hired by a super hot AI company
Which one I fear the most?
talking to my close friends & asking them to buy
Which could get a lot of money into my bank account soon?
Reaching new paid subs outside my immediate network, eg. from Substack Notes
Now, stepping away from strictly money talk.
What would make today great when it comes to creating & sharing?
publish yesterdayâs journal to Instagram
publish todayâs journal to Instagram
publish some of the big hits to Instagram (Summer Contrast?)
There is also one other option Iâm still feeling beneath:
Greatest hits/story flow from my existing journals.
Extract the essence from every day starting July 5th
Publish chronologically on Instagram
It becomes sort of an Insta-memoir
Something doesnât feel entirely right about it. Is it because itâs focusing too much on the past? Is it my opposition to glamorizing & hollywooding the narrative? Is it simply because I feel I should be focusing on current days?
The longer I think & write about it, the more obvious the course of action becomes:
get a steady paycheck
focus on daily creating
bring some spotlight onto big hits
convince closest friends to join the crew
promote outside immediate network too
invest daily time into promotion, building relationships, treat is a process I want to get good at.
Thatâs quite a lot to devour.
Let the thoughts & emotions settle down.
Be at ease.
Brain work is done.
Now itâs time to follow the Heart.
Listen, Observe, Do!
đď¸ Amazing Things
đď¸ Afternoon in Starogard with Hugi
Toy Cart Racing, 2x ice cream, Scooter, Playground, even cheeky shopping thrown in for good measure.
Divine Times Together
đď¸ New Look & Buying Nati a dress
Elite model look tank top brought my confidence back.
So did the new dress to Natiâs happiness.
Best spent 45 zĹoty!
đď¸ TV evening with Wifey
Giga giga fun.
Even the small dick jokes xD