😅 6 June 2023 Even Today

Today everything went “wrong”

• I woke up groggy, underslept, with little energy

• I did not publish my work

• The bike seat we’ve bought doesn’t fit

• Hugi couldn’t fall asleep, nor did he want to go to bath (big, big histeria)

• I had to vacuum the terrace to clean up broken glass

• Internet problems all day long

• No morning writing, no walk, no breakfast, no, no, no.

And yet, somehow, I’m writing these words with a fat grin on my face.

Damn, I even sang along to “Maybe this can last forever” in the chorus.

Yes, I did feel overwhelmed, relentless, dissapointed.

Yes, I took a beating.

Yes, I wished I could run away, if only for a weekend.

But emotions are just that.

Emotions.

They drift away, and the sun’s out again.

Even Today.

Love, B

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🏖️ Amazing Things

🏖️ Comforting Hugi During Pre-Bath Turbulence

It’s not the first time I’m struck by beauty & realness of a *hard* moment. These encounters always leave a profound mark on my perspective: It’s possible to feel divine in the midst of a storm. It’s all within.

🏖️ Groovin to Today’s Soundtrack Doing Dishes

The kitchen cleaning duty was another unenexpected source of pleasure. Scrubing & polishing is such an underrated mental health hack.

🏖️ Haircut

I’m still not sure if I like it, but the visit & solo trip were good times. It’s better than it was, that’s something.

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🧠 On my mind:

🧠 Lasting Happiness = Above Failure & Success

Today was supposed my launch day, but things turned out differently.

I feel like a looser for not delivering (again).

I’m fed up with this.

Will I ever be not so attached to success?

Could you become so internally strong that whatever success or failure comes you’re basically indifferent to them?

Perfect equanimity regardless of external factors.

The only way towards lasting happiness?