Breakdown or Breakthrough
18 January 2024, Boroszewo
I am grateful for:
ღ Letting go of the dysfunctional, and the invitation to create a more joyful way
I took a beating, right.
Will I allow it to steal my joy?
Hell no.
I’m rising back up, learning from the failure, and preparing towards new, better real-ity.
Sure, it hurts when things don’t go according to plan.
But maybe it was a wrong plan in the first place?
A wake-up call from the delusional.
Great-ful.
Amazing Things:
ღ Another Day of Hugi - whole(awe)somness
I adore the way he grabs me like a little monkey in the morning, going out of bed.
That alone always makes me smile.
Combined with a flurry of neck kisses (sweet like nectar!) as it happened this morning was just awww…<3
We continued the love-streak throughout the day.
Really, I can’t remember a single moment between us that felt off.
There were however many aura ones.
Immersing in his world, giving him my best, being really here when we’re together = Recipe for happy.
ღ A series of work breakthroughs
✓ Publishing Birthday Journal to Instagram
✓ First steps towards Journal:Data projects (writing to Szymon/OpenAi, and other high profile folks)
✓ Talking to Nati about Marbella Casas / Trocha Media Home
It requires A LOT to materialize my vision(s).
But that shouldn’t come as a surprise - I’m moving, making steps towards the historically most problematic area of my life.
Reconfiguration might hurt, take time, not be as easy as parts of me might want.
But it’s worth it.
Just like therapy,
it’s so fucking worth it.
ღ All family morning walk
“Are we really here, swinging together like a family?” - Nati
Work pressure made us forgo our bonding rituals in the past months.
Mistake.
A big fucking mistake.
What we do professionally was supposed to make us free to spend days just the way we want (including family walks & breakfasts), that was the whole idea behind our career choices.
And somehow we’ve lost it.
It feels awesome to be back on track, back in the easy-going, togetherness realm.
Spain-approved, again ;)
Here’s to more present time together.
ღ A very encouraging message from Natalia CookingSuperpowers Barcelona
“Ash just sent me Bartosz’s new post. It’s amazing”
If only you knew how much these words meant to me.
My world brightened up.
My doubts were silenced.
I felt power.
Thank you!
ღ Rising above, towards the love
When Nati left for bedroom, things were not okay between us.
I was tempted to continue the fight / quiet battle, but chose a different path instead.
LOVE.
Goodnight hug & kiss, words of understanding & hope, opening up again.
My philosophy in action.
ღ Breakdown or Breakthrough
I experienced another full-blown meltdown in the afternoon.
All heavy emotions & confusing thoughts hidden below the surface, exploded in front of Nati.
It was intense.