Regenerating
16 August 2024 / Boroszewo, Poland
I’m regenerating.
The last 7 months (3,5 years? 6 years? all my life?) have been intense.
I didn’t sleep that much (definitely less than my body needs), sprinted A LOT, and achieved a fair share.
I’m feeling the toll of this way of living.
I reached a point where change is due.
Calm, serenity, joyful expression while maintaining, hell increasing, my power → that’s the game I’m playing this season.
I’m done rushing, feeling trapped by anxiety, and not being Here that much.
I’m paving a new way.
I’ve learned a lot in my loco era.
The wings, once lost to depression, are halfway re-grown.
To spread them fully though, a new, nuanced approach is needed.
I’m ripe for the change.
The greatest difference moving forward is how I approach the Work.
I’m done chasing, hustling, constantly pressuring myself.
It’s an era of attraction, lovely seduction.
It’s an era of CREATION.
There’s nothing mystical nor spiritual in what I’m proposing.
I’m rooted deeply in the most ordinary of worlds, the current reality.
All that changes is my individual mindset.
It’s still work, but in a new way.
By any means, this manifesto is not an invitation for laziness.
Quite the opposite.
All I’m doing is dropping the needless mind chatter and emotional turbulence.
More and better Work will reveal itself without losing vital energy to fucking anxiety.
I don’t know where I’m going.
It’s possible I’ll never know that.
Exciting, isn’t it?
What kind of journey would it be, if I already knew the final destination, and all sights ahead?
My ideal voyage is different.
I simply untie the knot, and start rowing.
Let the yacht roam free wherever the winds take us.
Explore, experience, immerse
That’s the whole meaning of my journey.
Love, Bartosz