Unexpected hype man
8 January 2024, Boroszewo
Lately, Hugi has been very interested in my work.
He’s also super supportive, to the point I consider him my muse.
“I wish you good writing”
“Are you fighting for your writing?”
(this one really got me)
“I hope you have a pleasant working time”
He’s not even 3 years old!
Oh, Bear, if you knew how much these words mean to me.
Thank you & love you!
Talking about work…
It’s observe o’clock.
But first, Coffee.
“You don’t need more time
You need more focus”
First step: Recap of Happenings / Start Where You Are
I published first journal to Instagram
I have today’s post almost ready (“Let’s go, Baby!”)
Spain series is 90% done on Substack, and I have 3 ready to publish Instagram sets (post+reel) already done too
I have templates/frames for new posts
I also have post-Spain & Christmas & end-of-year journals. They exist only in pen&paper form so far.
I have not done any project-search-related work so far. All my work time after we came back was dedicated to journals
Second step: Want
I want “Spain” series fully published to Instagram (and potentially broader? Substack Notes?)
I want to publish/share parts of what I create daily in real or close to real-time <current journals>
I want the end-of-year journals transcribed & (even basically) published
I want to make the money that will allow us to fly South again
I want not to be tense about work&money anymore. Especially to the extent that it impacts my family, health, and life enjoyment
I want to keep living amazing days
I want to create what makes me smile
Third step: Bottlenecks & Fears
I fear I will invest all my time into creating&sharing, and it will not bring sufficient money to cover Spain2 & living expenses
I fear I will not find enough time to get all the stuff I want done
I fear I will start creating stuff that pleases people but doesn’t make me happy
I fear I will get super tense about productivity and lose the magic I found in Spain (already partly happening?)
I fear I will half-ass project search / strictly money moves
(It’s a form of self-sabotage!)
I fear things don't go as smooth as I’d wish for, and it will break my spirit (self-doubt, negativity, excessive pushing)
I fear potential failures might impact my mental health (remember: don’t go psycho!)
Okay, there’s also a part of me who’s scared of what could happen if things go well.
Are we really leaving Poland?
Where will we live?
How often will I see my parents?
Will they not be mad?
Will our currently great bond survive it?
Is it fair to leave them behind after all they’ve done for us?
How can I make sure we stay close if we’re moving?
Wow…
I wasn’t expecting the magnitude of this part…
—> process this internally
Maybe one last fear:
Am I good enough to get what I want done?
Does what I do have any value for others?
Isn’t it all a big fucking mistake?
→ Voices heard, acknowledged,
Caravana keeps moving.
Fourth step: How Might We
How might I publish both current journals as well as “Spain” series?
current issues on Substack first
share snippets of current in Insta stories
share both current & Spain alongside, simultaneously eg. 3 Spain sets/day + daily entry too
How might I make the money blazingly fast so that we can leave asap?
materialize “Marbella Casas” project and due pre-payment
get a job/project (pre-paid?)
break the bank with paid subs
sell lots of product (1-1 journaling workshop) or consulting hours
How might I make sure I create what I love, for myself first?
How might I not get so tense about all of it?
How may I keep going even if things get tough?
How do I keep my family & mood high regardless of what’s going on at work?
How to still live amazing days while getting the job done?
How to make sure what I publish retains the quality I want while creating larger volume of work?
How to don’t get anxious about time and tasks that I’d like to get done but don’t have enough space for?
How to prioritize what’s really important?
How to stay true to myself given everything that’s going on?
Fifth step: Distill Action Plan
☐ Publish “Let’s go, Baby” today
☐ Starting tomorrow, post 3 Spain sets a day
(it will end ideal on my bday… accident?) (also on Notes?)
☐ Find a way to publish current journals
(don’t obsess about it, the answer will come naturally… keep it in loose consciousness)
☐ Make radical moves directly towards the money
(☐Casas, ☐Job, ☐Paid Subs → Why not all? → Mutli-hyphen method)
☐ Create financial plan to understand the reality if our situation (how much do we really need to book tickets?)
☐ End-of-year journals (second part of the golden notebook) → same as with current journals… keep it loosely in consciousness and the answers will come
☐ Sacred hours for creating = MY PLAY TIME (evening?)
Most importantly: KEEP JOYFULLY MOVING
Relax.
You got this.
