No nib.
It simply broke from 7-year
writing streak.
Rest in peace, brother.
I cherish each of the
14,000 (fourteen thousand) pages
we wrote.
It’s time to
MOVE ON!
What adventures will your
descendant witness?
What heartwarming stories
await over the next
tower boogie of journals?
Everything is happening at once.
1. Hi Spring!
Today’s +2°C and sun are radiating proper end of winter joyful vibe. As much as I enjoyed my life, my time over the last couple of months, I would lie if I said I’m not awaiting warmer days. Season change? Count me in.
2. Sayonara Ganja
We’re saying goodbye to the auntie too. You helped me make it through the chilly days and home stays, but we’re in a different space now. I’m welcoming the new with open arms, and unfortunately you are not invited, Mary. Thanks for making my life easier, and see you in a (long) while!
3. Tczew getaway
We’re headed north tomorrow. I know I’ve only been there 2 short weeks ago, but for some reason I’m very happy about this trip and its utility as pattern-breaker. Life’s different outside of Warsaw, and this time I intend to really use it.
4. Job/Work/Money
The drifting / hiatus/ zen no action is also ending. I’ve been in a professional coma since Christmas, with just a tiny couple highlights in-between.But now I’m launching full throttle, don’t mind if I do. I’m feeling energy rising - time to ride the dragon again ;)
5. Waiting for the tiny feet
Family extension is moving to prime position, definitively. Whatever was stopping me from taking this life matter seriously is out. Mr. Double Daddy in the making!
6. Overeating/munchies
The big bear loves to snack. But I want my fucking 6 pack and chizzled jawline even more. I’m already in a good shape, but why not take it up a notch? Let’s unravel the masterpiece hiding below flabs of belly fat. Polish Power!
7. Isolation
The everlasting winter made everyone retreat to home bases most of January. Every person I’ve recently talked to is feeling caved in, disconnected. Time to breathe life into our social bonds again. Crew Love
8. Not building towards my dreams
I don’t need everything solved with a magic wand. I’m okay with things taking time. But I don’t want to stay paralyzed, not taking action(s) in the direction of what matters to me. Start walking the path! and let it take you on a (unexpected?) journey of a lifetime!
9. Illusions
Recent global events + inner realizations around my work-trauma response patterns (grandiose, delusional, saviour golden boy stuff) feel together like an end to my previous model of the world. What will replace the old? Ordinary days are the way!
10. Not writing, creating, sharing
Come what may, this heartfelt creative side of me is getting the love it deserves from now on. I needed the break_pause to realize how much I adore living the artist’s days. My my my.
Woho!
I wasn’t expecting to write such a lengthy and serious piece.
But hey (🎵) this is exactly why I write - to meet the unexpected, the hidden, the Alive.
Remember this date, Barti.
Something real is being cooked this very moment!
How about letting this force of nature break through the soil and blossom into first spring tulip?
Love, Bartosz