Journals (6 August - 14 September 2024)
Journals (6 August - 14 September 2024)
Words Change the World #1 // @bartosz.love
I. Introduction
Sweethearts,
I have something to share.
The last month has been tough for me.
Many things haunted me, both external and within.
I was restless, scared, borderline exhausted.
Often on the verge of giving up.
My refuge came in the form of letters.
I’ve written more, deeper, and truer than I did anytime in recent years.
This collection of journals reshaped me.
It gave my life meaning when nothing seemed to make sense.
Now it’s all yours.
May these pieces of me bring you what you seek.
II. What will you find here?
This flurry of journals is the most intimate window into my life.
Heartbreaks, <censored> notes, and traumas mix with moments of awe, excitement, and heart-melting wholesomeness.
Claude (my AI assistant) named our conversation “Reflections on Intensive Regeneration” and I think he hit the nail on the head.
This month was exactly that:
A time to re-assess my life priorities and operating methods.
I’ve asked myself the big questions I’ve tried to hide from in previous months.
I’ve faced the fears that consciously or not blocked my growth and caused anxiety.
I redefined what it means to be a dad, partner, employee, a human being, for my own purpose.
I’ve written from the heart, as if nobody was to read it, just the way I did years back when I first discovered writing-therapy.
These entries are raw.
They deal with heavy emotions.
They’re bold, bloody, unfiltered.
Maybe that’s why they helped me so much?
III. How to use it?
Below you can find the list of 37 journal entries alongside a short commentary on how they could serve you.
The best way to read them is chronologically, from the oldest to the newest, letting the narrative naturally play out.
If you’re short on time, you can jump right into the entries that best suit your interests and needs.
Entries dealing with the most delicate matters are paywalled.
One, I don’t necessarily feel like sharing my secrets with bots, lurkers, and other sleazy types.
Two, I need money.
As you’ll read throughout this series, I’ve had my (un)fair share of financial turbulence since becoming a writer / artist / creator.
I love creating, but I also love putting food on my family’s table.
Unfortunately, so far these two have not gone hand in hand.
So if you’d like to 1) show your appreciation and 2) support my further journey as a writer, please consider buying a subscription.
Keep in mind, that these are unedited, stream-of-consciousness journal entries.
There might be elements of repetition, unpolished structures, grammatical errors, and disjointed thoughts.
I’ve decided to NOT change the original contents of my pen & paper notebooks, to maintain their rawness & authenticity, allowing you to get an unfiltered glimpse inside a fellow being’s brain.
Hopefully, once you see how messed-up my mind processes sometimes (often?) become, you’ll feel less alone with your intrusive thoughts, negativity, and all-around psyche-drama.
We are all crazy.
And that’s what makes us human.
Have a lovely read.
Love, Bartosz
IV. The Journals
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